Doctors and dino eggs and everything else

Last week was a really tough one, but I'm still alive!  I was getting attacked by a stinkin' headache and nausea from Monday - Saturday, so it was a bit rough and I wasn't able to sleep very much.  I also had a doctor appointment on Wednesday.  We chatted, did some blood work, and he referred me to a urologist to try and get my bladder issues straightened out.  We're waiting for the results from the blood work.  He also checked out my mysterious lump (affectionately known to many as the "dino egg") on my right leg, because none of my doctors had come to a conclusion about it last year.  He almost had me get more scans done to check it out again, but he's pretty certain that it's a muscular deformity (which means we have 2 doctors agreeing on the same thing... which is pretty unique in my case), because it disappears when I relax my leg, and tumors don't do that.  It's also not growing and it doesn't hurt, so there's no sense in going in to remove it, and we know it's not fluid filled because it didn't show up on the MRI last year.  I've been exposed to quite a bit of radiation already, so doctors aren't just going to randomly send me to get scans done unless there is something that they really feel is worth looking at.  I'm trusting my doctor on this one.

I was feeling really down and discouraged for most of last week.  I guess it just seems like this has been lasting forever, and doctor appointments get me all anxious about the "what if's," and then, before ya know it, I'm an anxious and depressed mess. However, God has given me several reminders that he is STILL in control, and I'm trying really hard to just trust him and take one day at a time... but I could use a whole lot of prayers.  I honestly don't get how people go through these things without knowing Jesus.  I'd be hopeless.

I do have some exciting news!  I started volunteering at physical therapy, and I really enjoy it!  I was the happiest that I was all week when I came home from pt each time, so I know that it is a good thing for me to be spending some time doing this summer.  The people who work there are very encouraging people and they've given me more responsibilities than I expected, which I'm really happy about!  I thought that I wouldn't be doing very much with patients, but I get to work with them a lot and I love it!  Helping other people is a great way to get my mind off of my own problems, and I'm also learning a lot.

This week is off to a better start, and I'm choosing to keep my eyes fixed on Jesus, because he knows what he's doing!  Well, there are a lot more reasons than that to keep my eyes fixed on Jesus, but... you get the point...