Last week was the last week of the high school track season (we didn't have anyone make it to State Quals). The girls' sectionals were on Thursday, which was the same day that we had a ridiculous amount of severe thunderstorm warnings and tornado watches. We had to delay the meet three times due to storms, and then we finally had to call it a night at 9pm because it wouldn't stop storming. We were able to get about a third of the track meet done in 5 hours (normally we'd be done with the entire meet by then). We had to finish the rest of the girls meet during the boys meet on Friday, and of course we had to have a severe thunderstorm watch on that day too! We were able to finish both meets (awards and everything) by 9pm and we barely beat the storm. I had to do awards and run the results back and forth for both of the meets, so I was all over the place. Being the first person to have a printed version of the results is scarier than you'd think. The coaches like to see the results ASAP, so you pretty much have to either be really sneaky or just sprint back to the press box if you don't want to be attacked by a swarm of high-strung coaches. The team also had a meet on Monday, so we had 3 long, rainy, nights this week.
My fever seemed to be making a come back last weekend and earlier this week, so I was nervous that I wasn't going to be able to survive such a busy week, but I did! My body is so weird. The fever doesn't seem to have to do with the amount of activity that I do or anything. It's just random. It's the same way with my stomach, too. I got really sick after running 20 minutes on Tuesday, and then I ran 40 minutes 2 days later (when it was REALLY hot) and was fine. I really can't explain how confusing and stressful it is for me. A lot of times people will tell me that I look good or seem to be doing better, but honestly, everything is still confusing, stressful, and sometimes very discouraging. We really don't know what's going on, and we haven't made much improvement with the doctors. When I'm feeling better, I tend to want to just give up with the doctors and assume that everything's better, and then I just get frustrated when I realize that I'm still sick. Yes, there is a possibility that eventually things will just get better, but there's still the huge emotional tole of being sick... and even "getting better". I've learned that transitioning from one to the other can be stressful no matter what. I really love having my two best friends back home because they seem to understand the whole "chronic illness" thing the best. They know that it doesn't mean I'm always acting like a sick person, but that it does add a bunch of new challenges to my life that I didn't have before. Most of the time, people who don't know me that well wouldn't be able to tell that anything is even wrong, which I'm learning to be very thankful for. It just makes things interesting because I hear everything from "You look great!" to "You look really sick." on the same day. I am definitely doing better than I was a few months ago, but there are still weird things going on. The newest symptom is that I get rashes on my neck that come and go.
I hope everyone is having a great Memorial Day weekend! Mine's been great so far! I went to a picnic and hung out with some friends yesterday, and it was a lot of fun! I was laughing so much and I couldn't stop, and it made me really happy... even though I lost at Croquet, Bocce Ball and Dutch Blitz. We also ate really good food and sang hymns together, so that made up for losing at EVERYTHING. =P I'm going to make gluten/soy/dairy free s'mores tonight! I'm so excited. You have no idea.
that's so weird! I get fevers for no reason too and almost always have one. And i have random rashes too. I know what you mean by what everyone tells you! Haha how can i look great and very sick at the same time?....
ReplyDeleteKeep going! You're doing great!!!