Stand on the shores of a site unseen...

God has a way of working in ways that don't make sense to me... or, to anyone else.  Sometimes I forget that.  Most of the time, I expect him to do what makes sense to me.  And, well, getting diagnosed right now makes perfect sense to me.  Getting healthy makes wonderful sense.  Having things go back to how they were... that makes freakin' perfect sense... when I forget that he's got better plans than going backwards.  God wants me to keep moving forward.  God wants me to be open to the change that He's doing in my life.  God wants me to get my joy from Him... not in things that don't last.

God wants me to trust that there's so much more to life than what I see right now.

This is my favorite song (Since yesterday.  Give me a few days, and I'll probably have a new favorite song.  That's usually how it works.), and you should probably listen to it and check out the lyrics.  Josh Garrels pretty much says everything that I'm trying to say.

Josh Garrels - Beyond the Blue

Stand on the shores of a site unseen
The substance of this dwells in me
Cause my natural eyes only go skin deep
But the eyes of my heart anchor the sea
Plumbing the depths to the place in between
The tangible world and the land of a dreams
Because everything ain’t quite it seems
There’s more beneath the appearance of things
A beggar could be king within the shadows,
Of a wing

And wisdom will honor everyone who will learn
To listen, to love, and to pray and discern
And to do the right thing even when it burns
And to live in the light through treacherous turns
A man is weak, but the spirit yearns
To keep on course from the bow to the stearn
And throw overboard every selfish concern
That tries to work for what can’t be earned
Sometimes the only way to return is to go,
Where the winds will take you

And to let go, of all, you cannot hold onto
For the hope, beyond,the blue

Yellow and gold as the new day dawns
Like a virgin unveiled who waited so long
To dance and rejoice and sing her song
And rest in the arms of a love so strong
No one comes unless they’re drawn
By the voice of desire that leads em’ along
To the redemption of what went wrong
By the blood that covers the innocent one
No more separation
Between us.

So lift your voice just one more time
If there’s any hope may it be a sign
That everything was made to shine
Despite what you can see
So take this bread and drink this wine
And hide your spirit within the vine
Where all things will work by a good design
For those who will believe

And let go, of all, we cannot hold onto
For the hope, beyond, the blue

Said I let go, of all, I could not hold onto
For the hope, I have, in you